Go, Hubby, Go!!!!

I'm silently cheering for my hubby today...silently because he doesn't know I am chering for him. By now you should all know that I try really hard at working out. But I always fall short when it comes to the diet part of diet and exercise. I have lost around 30 pounds in the last 10 months or so of trying, but most of that was in the first few months and i've been on a huge plataue ever since. I know it's because I don't eat well....and I try.....but I always fall back into the same patterens. My trainer doesn't really even talk to me much about nutrition anymore because I think he thinks it is falling on deaf ears, or ears that don't want to listen....or ears that hear every word, have every good intention, but just dont follow through! Yeah, that's it!

So anyway, I try to blame my poor eating on my hubby and kids. But I buy all the grocrieries, I do the cooking...it's the times i'm busy or tired, or whateever that the little voices (not ones in my head, ones from my family) say "Let's just get pizza, or Chinese", or whatever thing that I should not eat, but it sounds so good, and I have no will power to say no.

So last night the kids were in bed, finially, and the hubby and I were watching TV. We were watching a show called something like "650 pound virgin"...it was about a guy that was 650 pounds, then lost a ton of weight, just with diet and exercise, no surgery (except to remove skin). And now he is looking for love. It was a good show. So the hubby get's up during a commercial and goes to the kitchen. I know there is ice cream, and leftover birthday cake (it was just my daughters 5th b-day) so I am steling myself to say no when he asks if I want some too, and I give myself the ok to have one bite of his...and while all this is going on in my head...he comes back to the living room with a bowl of grapes and pineapple chunks!!!!! I was so proud of him!! And I shared a few of his grapes....but I didn't say anything....I didn't make a big deal......But I am proud!! Now I don't know what he is eating today at work (probably nothing, he usually skips breakfast and lunch...bad bad bad!) but maybe this is a new healthy trend he is going to try to stick with! And I will support him 100% because all I have been hoping for is support from him. So now maybe, finally, we can do this together!

I have decided that personal trainers are just motivational speakers that know how to exercise!!

How was that one for a long title??
So, I haven't posted in about 3 weeks...and I logged on and read my last post and just want to punch myself. (Actually I would never punch myself because I'm not really into pain!) but you get what I'm saying. My last post, 3 weeks ago, was all about how I was going to really step it up on the diet part of this whole diet and exercise thing. Well....it hasn't happened. (Who saw that shocker coming?!?) I have still been working out on my normal schedule, but I have been eating like total poo!!! We went away 2 weekends ago to a fancy vacation at a lodge that happens to have an executive chef on site, mmmmmmm, I did alot of walking, but there was no burning off the calories I was consuming.....you should have seen the desserts! And this last weekend was 4th of July, which I spent up north with my family, I've told you before how my mom cooks right? 'nuff said! But I did hold back some, like I didn't have any smores or hot dogs by the fire. And Sunday night when I took my little daughter to the fireworks, I didn't have any of the food at the fair, even though it all smelled de-lish, I just have an Aquafina Flavor water!! Plus I had to piggy-back my daughter for the 5 block walk back because her little feet hurt.

Back to the point....So it was me and the trainer one on one this morning, I'm not sure what happened to D the work-out buddy, must be still on va-ca. But whenever we are alone I get "The Talk"! Sometimes I cry. I didn't today. But he was saying how he saw that drive and determination in me at the beginning, when I lost that first 10 pounds so quickly....and he was asking what he could do to get that drive back. Any way he could help? Anything he could do? And I said I would let him know.....he acknowledged my 'hormone issue', as he refers to it, and he understands that we need to get that in check.

So I thought....and I think I came up with something. I think I need short terms goals...like when I know that he is going to weigh me in a week, I crack down and make my goal. But then any other time I just think, ohhh pizza for dinner wont hurt. So I'm going to discuss this with him on Thursday, and I'll let you know!