Wednesday, May 27, 2009

....Probably Not!

I don't know what I weigh right now....and I don't really care. OK, I do care, but....you know what I mean. I felt really fat in my workout clothes this morning. I spent the weekend up north with my parents and my kids. We had some Hardee's breakfast on the drive up.....we snacked and ate a ton while we were there. We went to the movies one night and had pop and popcorn and candy. Yada Yada Yada. Then Monday afternoon my son took a nasty spill and we had to take him to the ER.....3 stitches in the eyebrow and he's good as new. but just in case, I stayed home from work yesterday to be with him, you know, in case he needed extra love and care. I couldn't leave my stitched up baby with a sitter. So a missed day of work means a missed workout, and I didn't do cardio on Monday because that was a holiday. So a pig out weekend + 2 missed workouts in a row = blah!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

....Or maybe Not!

Well......I've been eating pretty good lately. And then my Dad called yesterday morning and asked if I wanted to go get us ribs for lunch. (There is a man with a smoker that has taken up camp in a parking lot just down the street from our work. He cooks ribs, and chicken, and pulled pork....and it all comes covered with sauce and with french fries that he makes in a little propane deep fryer right when you order.) So I went and picked a slab and fries and we shared it for lunch, and then we just finished up the leftover today for lunch.

I hopped on the scale before my workout this morning. (I had just walked past my trainer downstairs, so I knew he wouldn't be up there to check my progress if I just jumped on real quick)......230! So instead of loosing 2 pounds since last week, which was my plan, I gained 1!!! Not Good!

And this is a holiday weekend coming up, and I'm taking the kids up-north with my parents, and my mom gets up there and cooks like 15 people are there, even though there will only be 6 of us (and 3 of them are under the age of 7!!) But I will just have to work on restraint! (I went to a baseball game last night, and when I was walking around the ball park with my friend and she suggested we get waffle cones, but I declined, One small victory at a time!)

Monday, May 18, 2009

It's my Party.....maybe....

This weekend there was a lot of drama at my house. My brother-in-law is turning 30 this week, and he wanted his wife to have a party for him. I don't know all of the details, just bits that my hubby told me, but basically there are scheduling conflicts and the party may or may not happen, and probably will not happen when the birthday boy wants it. So this got me thinking.....

A couple years ago my hubby turned 30, and I threw him a big surprise party. And because it was the weekend of Cinqo de Mayo, I had a great Mexican Fiesta theme. It all went off without a hitch, the hubby had a good time, and it is still one of my proudest achievements. (Graduating from college and bearing children are pretty high on that list too, but that was one heck of a party, and that I pulled it all off in secret while I was pregnant ..... give me some props!)

So later that year it was my 30th birthday. The hubby kept asking what he could do to make it special for me, but all I wanted was a big fat kicking baby out of my womb! (The baby was born 2 days after my birthday....the little stinker!!) So...needless to say....I had a crummy 30th. I thought maybe the hubby would make it up with something really special last year for the 31st.....but we had both been out of work that year, and financially anything Big was out of the question. So I got a dinner out and some nice gifts, and I was more than happy.

So all the recent birthday drama got me thinking.....maybe I will have a really nice birthday party for myself this year. We have some casinos near us, and they just built new hotels onto them, and they have night clubs in them......see where I'm going! But if I have a big night out for myself....i will need to be celebrating more than just 32 years of existing......and just before my birthday will be the 1 year anniversary of my weight loss journey......and I'm hoping to break the 200 pound mark by then.....see where I'm going again??

So!!! IF.....before my birthday......I can get my weight below 200 (27 pounds lost so far, 29 to go in the next 4 months)...then I will get a room at the casino for the night and invite my family and friends to come meet me there for dinner and dancing! Maybe even gambling, it is a casino after all!

This is such a better goal to strive for.....instead of a number I can be racing towards a PARTY!!! And you can all be invited....you just have to figure out the time and place on your own!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Drum roll Please.......

To continue the food diary, after lunch yesterday I had a small Slim fast snack bar for my afternoon snack, then chewed some gum so I wouldn't be hungry. For dinner I scavenged around the house and ended up making soft tacos. Not the Healthiest meal, but I made it a pretty healthy way. Instead of the usual taco meat, side of rice, side of beans, nachos chips, cheese quesedillas, some crunchy thing in the oven (mini tacos, taquetos, etc) and salsa, sour cream, guacamole, and soft and hard shells.......I made venison meat (almost no fat) with taco seasoning, added water and rice and let that cook down, added frozen corn kernels, then served it on a soft tortilla with cheese and chips. (I did make cheese quesdillas for the kids, and I did eat 1/6 of my son's!) But I just had a small serving of the meat/rice/corn mixture and 1 tortilla...and I even bought the small soft taco size instead of the giant burrito size. So I'm proud of that dinner. Then right before bed the hubby offered me a Reese's Peanut Butter Cup as he was having one. I told him "No way, I'm weighing in in the morning!" And he apologized for eating it in front of me. I said "No prob!"

So anyway......drum roll please..................229! Not great, but under 230 and better than I thought it would be. I still got a pep talk from the trainer, but not the tongue lashing I was expecting. I'm actually pleased. Tuesday when he told me that I was going to be weighed on Thursday, I was really panicked! Thus the extra careful food choices the last few days. But, I didn't starve myself, or do any crazy laxatives or super workouts or anything. And I still weighed in under 230! I was just doing what I should always be doing, trying to put healthy things into my body, resisting temptation, regular exercise.......I just need to keep it up.

The trainer's pep talk was pretty good too. He talked about how at work I have deadlines I need to meet and projects I need to get completed, and that there are always improvements to be made. (In case you don't know, I'm an engineer. So my job is to basically keep making things better.) So he was saying just to look at my weight loss goals the same. Just change little things to make improvements. And then after D, the workout buddy, left for work, and it was my usual last 5 minutes of alone time with the trainer he did something pretty cool. He pulled out this 'box'. It's a sturdy, metal, raised platform with a rubberized top surface. We usually use it to step up onto. He put it in front of me and asked me to crouch down a little. Then he told me to jump up onto it! I of course gave him the "What you talking bout Willis?" face. He just put a hand behind me and told me to do it. So....I did it!! I made it up onto the box, but lost my balance a bit and it was a good thing his arm was behind me to steady me. I stepped back down, he told me good job, and to do it again.......this time it was still a struggle, but I did it without loosing my balance. And I did it again....and again! 4 times in all. And he was really happy, and I was really happy. And then he told me that he actually didn't think I was going to make it. He hoped I did, but he wasn't sure. So that is a great confidence booster!!

I have just over 5 weeks until my anniversary. I had on my original goal sheet that I wanted to be below 220 by then, the weight I was when I got married 7 years ago. So 9 pounds in 5 weeks....2 pounds a week. I can do that!! And I am going to do it! Just you watch.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Weigh in Tomorrow.

Ok...so to continue the food diary from yesterday.....after lunch I never got a snack because I was too busy working. Then I did go to Subway for dinner....I got a foot long chicken breast on wheat, no cheese, lots of veggies, and only vinegar for dressing. The hubby got a pizza steak and cheese and it looked reallt really good, and I did have one bite of it. Then after dinner the hubby had a bowl of light ice cream, and I again just had one bite of his. But then......I don't know if it was pent up hunger from the whole day of eating healthy....of from smelly the hubby's yummy sub....but I went to the fridge to get a drink, and I pulled out my 1/2 a pizza sub left over from Sunday's dinner...and I started eating it.....I ate about 6 bites, maybe a 1/3 of what was left of it. And I felt so bad for doing it....but I tried to do a quick calorie count, and I think I was still around 1800 calories for the whole day, so that is pretty good.

Today I didn't eat before my workout, then I had a Slimfast meal bar afterward.....no morning snack, too busy......a small salad and a lean cuisine fish & rice meal for lunch.......not sure what we are having for dinner yet. And no standing in the fridge binge tonight! No way.....I weigh in first thing tomorrow!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Weigh in on Thursday.

So at the end of the workout this morning, my tainer told me to weigh in first thing Thursday. I'm sure it's because he knows that I have NOT been loosing any weight, and maybe even gained a few pounds. And then he can ride me about it for the whole work-out. And if you have been reading this from the begininning, you know what comes next, i'll cry, then blame it on hormones, then work really hard for a few weeks and actually loose some weight, then i'll get all lazy and the process will start over. So to avoid this, i'm going to crash diet for the next two days. I know this isn't good, and it won't give an accurate weight on the scale on Thursday, but maybe it will jump start me to keep up some healthier eating for a while. So today I had a Larabar before my workout, it's a new all natural food bar that my trainer suggested, they are actually really tasty and healthy, and I kinda like them. Best of all the flavors are all things like "Apple Pie" or "Cashew Cookie" So i can trink myself into thinking it's a dessert! So anyway...Larabar, workout, yogert, then a small salad and a Healthy Choice meal for lunch......I think i'm going to have some cottage cheese this after noon and then Subway (with tons of veggies) for dinner. I'll post tomorrow at lunch again, because that will keep me on track. Bring it on Thursday...I'm ready for you....I hope!

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Pass the Salsa!

Today is Cinco de Mayo.....I'm eating Taco Bell right now! Don't judge! You know that I love it, crave it, it calls to me in the night. I figure with all the swine flu in the news, Mexico is getting a bad rap lately, so I am celebrating with them today by enjoying their wonderful cuisine. (Ok, Taco Bell is far from authentic Mexican, but how could I pass up this perfect excuse.)

Monday, May 4, 2009

The Hubby is On-Board.....for now....

So last Saturday was the hubby's birthday. He turned 32. All last week, in an attempt to spoil him, I let him pick what he wanted for dinner every night....so, needless to say, we ate out every night. I think it was Chinese on Monday, a steak house on Tuesday, BW3 on Wednesday, Pizza on Thursday, he went out with his friends on Friday, we went to a fancy Steakhouse on Saturday.

Now I thought I was going to be dropping weight left and right after I started my thyroid medication a few weeks ago, that hasn't happened yet, but I am still on the slow and steady track down. And the hubby has been noticing. He says that he can feel how much smaller I am when he wraps his arms around me, that makes me happy. But he also says that he is now at the biggest that he has ever been.

So in the middle of last week he said that he was going to enjoy his birthday week, but the following week, that would be starting today, he is going to be on a diet! So we polished off the last of the birthday cake last night, and I shopped for healthy food. My biggest food issue is always him. I eat very good all day while I'm at work, then I let him corrupt me at dinner time. I complain that I'm tired and don't want to cook, he suggests Chinese or pizza, I cave in. But he said he is not going to do that now. So tonight I am making grilled salmon, pan fries, and corn on the cob. Not the most healthy, but home-cooked and I'll know exactly how much salt and fat is in it.

Hopefully we can stick to this through our anniversary in June. My goal, on the goal sheet my trainer had me fill out way back in September, was to be under 220 by June 22nd.....so that is about 10 pounds to loose in the next 7 weeks. Should be totally do-able. That's the plan and I'm sticking to it!!