Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Off the Wagon.....but just for the Holiday's

so....after my last post, I happened to run into M (the new possible, now probably, partner). I asked him what he had been saying to my Dad, and he happily told me that he needed to conspire with my Dad to get me to be his partner. I asked if he was mental, because he was the one that came in 2nd last time, and I had come in 22nd, and I should be the one working to get him as a partner, not the other way around. So basically it was settled that we would team up. So I happily told him that I had been doing pretty good and had worked out every morning for the past couple weeks. And he told me to, and I quote, "Cut it out!" See heading into the competition we don't want to loose all the weight ahead of time, because that's weight that won't count when the contest starts. And I agree with him, and I'm all about any excuse, but I also still need to fit into my new suit pants!!

I enjoyed myself for Christmas. Made cookies for all my family and friends. Made a huge dinner for my hubby's family on Christmas eve. (And I mean HUGE!!!! For Appetizers: A shrimp ring, Chili Cheese Dip w/tortilla chips, Cheese, sausage & Crackers, Veggies & Ranch, Deviled Eggs, Relish tray, and Spinach & Artichoke dip w/ mini pitas. Then for Dinner: Honey Baked Ham, Turkey, Mashed potatoes & Gravy, Stuffing, Cauliflower w/Cheese, Cheesy potato casserole, Candied Yams, Maple Glazed Carrots, and rolls. then for Dessert: Pumpkin Roll, a few kinds of cookies, candy, and my sister-in-laws brought 3 different kinds of pies. And I also made Punch) And since there were 7 people there, there were tons of leftovers!!! And we had a big dinner the next day at my mom's house. And the next day I was sick of home cooked food so we went out for Pizza.

I only worked out yesterday with my trainer, and I'm not working out anymore this week. I'm eating a salad, with leftover turkey, for lunch today. And I'm making a pretty healthy dinner tonight, Chicken, rice, & green beans. But I have been munching on leftover desserts every night before bed. Tonight will be the last of the pumpkin roll...yum! And we are going to my sister's house tomorrow for New Years Eve and there will be a ton of food!

But after that I am totally back on the wagon. Not so much as a New Year's Resolution, more because I need to fit into my pants in less than 3 weeks!

Monday, December 21, 2009

Doing Good, Feeling Good!

So, I worked out again this morning, so I am happily back into my 'cardio every morning' routine. I'm not as tired as I was a few weeks ago either. Saturday I went to my company Christmas party, they rented out the Detroit Institute of Arts, very snazzy!! Then Yesterday I went to the casino with my mom in the morning, did some shopping on the way home, then baked all afternoon and into the evening. Yes, I licked some spoons, and sampled some wares, but not too much. I made a little roast and some mashed potatoes for dinner, and I weighed in this morning.....232!! So still slowly going down, even after a day of baking!!

I have more baking to do tonight, and then I need to box up the goodies to hand out for Christmas! I love to bake, and this is the best time to get it all out of my system, then hand out all the hard work so I'm not tempted to eat it!

Quickly, back to the Christmas party. I sat at a table with my hubby (of course :) ), my parents (my dad works with me, remember), my sister and her boyfriend (who works there too, bf not sister), and another guy random guy from work that ended up at our table. So the other guy was asking how I had done in the weight loss competition, and I said not so hot, because I had gotten sick and fell off the wagon, yada yada. And he asked if I was going to do the next one, and I said I was thinking about it. And my Dad chimed in, "Yeah, you are going to be partners with M, right?" and I was shocked, like "How do you know that!!" and dad just said he 'knows things.' So...obviously....M must have told him. Because I didn't say a work to anyone...except here...but no one reads this.....except that I did send a link to my trainer.....whatever....most likely M told my dad. So that is good news, because that means he was serious about what he said, and that gets me kinda excited about this whole thing!

Also, I had to buy a suit for a business trip coming up in a few weeks, I have to go to Vagas for a week. So I bought all new clothes before I started here, a year and a half ago. And my pants were size 20. And I was so sad at the time that I had allowed myself to balloon up not just to double digit sizes, but then to sizes that started with a '2'!!! So...I know my old work pants are really loose now, but I haven't bought anything new. So I was trying on suits, and I fit easily into the 18....and the one that I really liked and wanted, they only had the pants in a 16. So I thought, why not, and I tried them on....and they fit!! Not great, they are definitely tight in the leg and making a muffin top, but I got them up an buttoned without a struggle, so that was good enough for me. (I got the jacket in an 18, just because it was more comfortable.) So I'm going to try to drop at least 10 pounds before my trip, then my suit should be really perfect!

That's the goal 10 pounds before Jan 18th! Starting weight, 232! Count down starts .....Now!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Another Challenge....A New Partner??

First off, I weighed in before my workout yesterday, 234...down one pound from the day before, Great start to my new (again) dedication. Then yesterday was our department Christmas pot luck, so I ate a ton for lunch, including appetizers, 2 plates of food, and dessert....and then snacked on some leftovers in the afternoon. So I weighed in this morning before my workout, pretty much expecting to have gained, and I was just a shade under the 234 from yesterday, lets call it 233 & 3/4....what a great surprise.

So, at the end of the last weight loss challenge, when I had given up and was blaming everything on my thyroid and sickness, B told me that they are already starting to plan the next challenge. This time they want to do partners, to which I told him, "No way! I'm not going to drag a partner down with me."

Fast forward to today. I had to go to production to talk to a few workers about processes. One of the workers happened to be M, who came in in 2nd place in the last challenge. He lost something amazing like 82 pounds. He started out around the hubby's size and just worked really hard. I saw him in the gym a few times, especially when I was doing the lunch time workouts and occasionally after work too. He was always in a good mood and motivational. So today we discussed the work related issues, and I congratulated him on his 2nd place win. He noted how I had been so strong in the beginning and then he didn't see me in the gym anymore. Apparently he had asked B about me and was told I was sick. So I told him the rest of the story, that I was sick, and my whole family was sick, and I got run down, in part because of my thyroid, and I was giving in to the pizza and Chinese, and then got discouraged. He told me how his wife was super supportive and he couldn't have done it without her, and how he understands how people like us, "big people", have food issues and it is so easy to go back down the 'bad food choice' road. He also has a family with small kids (I'm not sure how many or ages) and that it is hard to go workout and eat right and be with your family.

I told him about my new theory, where the less I worked out the worse my energy level was, and how I'm working out everyday again, and even though it has only been 3 days I'm already feeling better. He totally agreed and gave me some other energy tips. Ever hear of Royal Jelly??

Then he brought up the impending competition. I told him the same thing about not wanting to drag a partner down. And he said, we dont know how people will be pared up yet, but if we get to pick partners, then he wants to be my partner. Even though he watched me crash and burn last time, how I kinda gave up at the end, he wants to help me. He said he could "see how bad I want it." And how hard I tried, and that if I started to get discouraged a little he would kick me back into it. And I think he would. And I think I could trust him to not have any ulterior motives, he just made a big change in his life and wants to help me do the same thing.

Monday, December 14, 2009

So...I was reading Glamour Magazine....

I have brought in articles from Glamour magazine to my trainer before. He just laughs them off. and I should know better than to take the advice from a magazine over my licenced/ professional trainer (did I ever tell you that his son is a professional body builder??? The man knows what he is talking about).

So lately I haven't been feeling good. So I have been working out less. and I have been exhausted when I get home from work, and don't feel like cooking, so I give in to pizza and take out and whatever!

And then I put weight back on. So I feel discouraged, "I'm never going to lose weight, any I lose I'll just put back on!" Si I give in to all my cravings, cookies, pizza rolls, TACO BELL!!!!

And I feel even worse. So I started blaming it on my medication. Maybe I need a higher dose, yeah, that's why I'm tired and want snacks!

Then I was reading, and I remember reading this many times before, but diet and exercise have a big impact on your mood and energy level! So I started thinking....Sure, I was sick and run-down.....but then I didn't 'jump back onto the horse'! I kinda strolled along the coral fence and peeked over.....So today I'm going for a ride! I came in and worked out....325 calories, not a ton, but way more than I've done in the past month or so, and I'm having good'ole salad w/tuna for lunch....have some yogurt for this afternoon and a dinner thawing in the fridge for tonight.

I'll see how long I can keep this up again, but....if my theory is right....for every day I exercise and eat better, I should get more energy!

(And as far as weight, I weighed myself this morning, 235, almost what I started the weight loss challenge at, but I'm not going to be discouraged by it, it's just a number, and by the end of this week, that number should be just a little bit smaller!)

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Sickness strikes again!

Not me this time, luckily.....but my poor little son. He's only two, so he can't say "My tummy doesn't feel so well, I think I'm going to be sick"...and then run for the toilet, like I would. Instead it's more like a little whinny "Ohh oh, ohh no!" and then projectile vomit, all over me. twice. at 2:00am. needless to say that none of my family got sleep that night. And I was tired the next morning and skipped my workout, actually didn't go to work at all in an effort to keep any and all germs in my house. and then I was late to my workout today, still tired. So no warm-up cardio. And then he had us to leg presses, and I broke two toes! I just assume they are broken, then swelled some, and hurt like hell, and they won't bend. So I was on the leg press machine, and I was curling my foot up so as to not put pressure on the toes. The trainer always say for these excersises to push through your heel. So you are not really supposed to put pressure on your toes anyway. I do, I know I do, I try not to, but I do. So maybe breaking some toes will help me do better leg presses! but I can't let the trainer know, he might want to break toes on my other foot too!!!
I know I need to come in and do cardio tomorrow, but I'll tell you right now it is not going to happen. I need rest. I really do. I have been going to bed early, and I still can't get up in the morning. The hubby is getting super annoyed with my snooze button. I can't wait till I go to the endocrinologist in a few weeks!

Friday, December 4, 2009

The competition is over!

Yep! all done, the weigh in was today. I didn't even know when the weigh in (or weigh out as I've heard others call it) was supposed to be. Then I met the hubby at the Chinese buffet for lunch yesterday, and when I got back to my office, I had an e-mail that the numbers were due before noon today! Of course!
So I weighed in..... 231.5, so that is down a grand total of 6 pounds, 2.5%. Better than nothing, way better than gaining, but I know that i was down 15 pounds a couple weeks ago, then all the sickness, and tiredness, and Thanksgiving! And I totally admit that I was eating badly. If I had been doing my minimum workouts, but eating better I think I would have done so so much better.
I'm going to the doctor on Monday, the Gyn, and I'm going to ask about getting off the BC pills, I think I'm going to try an IUD instead. So maybe that will help, they usually say that BC pills make you hold onto some weight. Also, I go to the endocrinologist in another month, and I'm hoping she ups the dose of my thyroid meds. I think that will help with my energy and my coldness, it will all depend on my blood work.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

I don't know what is wrong with me!

I feel like crap! Not sick....no runny nose or sore throat or any of that....just tired, and achy. I didn't want to get up yesterday, but I didn't know why. I had went to the Red Wings game the night before, but we were up 4 to 1 in the 3rd period, so we left early, avoided the traffic, and I was dropping my friend off a little after 10pm. So I wasn't out too late? But it was a Tuesday, and since I didn't have a good excuse to tell my trainer, I sucked it up and went. Straight off he knew something wasn't right, he told me good job showing up, but to take it easy, stop if I felt bad, you know the drill. I was able to keep up with D and K for most of the workout, but I wasn't too much fun, no joking or singing along with the radio, or dancing in between reps, my normal nuttyness, I just didn't feel like it.

I met the hubby at subway for lunch, I just wanted to get out of my office. Made it through the rest of the day and went home. I ate the last of the Thanksgiving leftovers for dinner and was in bed around 9:30. I didn't even go out and kiss the hubby goodnight, which is highly abnormal for me. I didn't even realize it until he came in and asked why I was falling asleep already! I was watching TV, then I was suddenly really cold, so I got under the covers and just started to nod out. (That's another thing, I have been cold alot again. I was doing so much better on my medicine, so I am chalking the coldness up to the fact that it is December, but my medicine might have something to do with it???)

I could NOT get up this morning. I woke up a few times in the night and couldn't get comfortable. My hip usually has pain in it, I think it is arthritis, and it has hurt for years. It's been better the last year or so since I've been loosing weight, but not 100%. Now for the last month my left ankle has had a similar pain. I started to feel it the night of my Dad's 60th party, and thought it was from the boots I wore, but it hasn't gone away. Sometimes it's worse than others. But now the last two nights I have been sore all over. My Back, my shoulders, my arms & legs. So I hit the snooze this morning until there was noway I could make a workout, then I reset it for 7, and when it started to go off again I couldn't get up. I know the hubby hates when I hit the snooze alot, but I couldn't help it.

I noticed the last couple days too that my face is breaking out a little bit. So maybe I'm PMS'y. But I have never been PMS'y like this. Usually bitchy and tired and zitty. Never depressed and exhausted and achy and zitty???

I go to my OB/Gyn on Monday for the yearly tune-up. So i will tell her. She is a good doctor and the one that originally sent me to the endocrinologist last year and found out about my thyroid issues.